this is the place where i rest

Dear Readers,

I hope that you have had a lovely December. I am looking forward to longer days with more sunshine, even though I know that is still months away. I cling to that thought to get through the dark, damp winter months.

This week we explore acceptance. It is hard to accept things that we do not like. I’m working on learning to tolerate the things that I am not able to change. Tolerating is the first step towards acceptance.

Be kind to yourself, and remember to nourish your body, mind, and spirit.

Your moderator

Kira

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this is the place where i rest

learning how

to stop

imploding

from

the outside

in

has been a

challenge

for me

beginning

with my arrival,

no body

there

to soften

my fall.

so tell me,

what was i

to do

but fall

hard

into days

and nights

of

oblivion,

searching

for comfort,

desperate

for faster

and faster

ways

to stop

feeling

so

alone.

i knew

that marrying

him

was a sin

against myself

but i,

full of insatiable

hunger

wanted so much

to believe he was

my

soft place

to fall that

i

failed to hear

my timorous

voice that said

“no no no.”

today

after decades

of self abasement, i

reclaim myself.

finally,

i choose myself

over the pain,

over the disassociation,

over the chaos.

saying yes

to my life,

saying “katharine

i see you.

you matter,

you belong

here in

this glorious mess

of a world.”

klove